PAST

2009-09-21T03:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE.

youre 18, like finally.

may time fly so wt can join the 8een-gang too.

HA-HA!

eff-ing happy`

2009-09-02T02:54:00.000-07:00

cause holidays starts today!
*cheers*

2009-08-27T07:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
S`ylvia & S`haron
(L)oves!

ex-tra-hausted`

2009-08-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

its over.
2 more sufferings.
and it will really be over!

for that, i will be strong. (:

ouchh`

2009-08-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

ouch, my head has been hurting the whole of today. and i can never be more suay than today. i made my mother's pot chao da. hahaha paiseh :x shiat, why i feel like somebody is banging my head. zzz!

tmr's the day.
goodluck, & im scared ):

2009-08-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

im wondering, how would i feel tmr night, at this point of time. but i hope i will be sleeping by then. im so inconfident of myself, because i have to refer to the lecture notes time and again when i try to do a past year exam paper. shiat, how how how.

then he said; "girl, fret not because there's still one SHORT day."

something is wrong right here`

2009-08-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

omg i ctrl-f5ed but the layout still sucked. ive decided to semi-abondon my blog. but again, im not abondoning it because i seriously love my current blogskin and i love making my own blogskins. lol.

blogs will be used for saying unoffensive and non-private stuff.

lj is used for doing all kinds of evil verbal stuff.

hahaha.

i procrastinated quite alot again today, but i did study. managed to finish making notes for 2.8 chapters for fa. tmr and mon will be solely reserved for ff. gambatte ne!

2009-08-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

safe, or unsafe?

had to go to sch for presentation. but had a nice time cause after that i went for lunch with the twin and mls. felt tired during which cos my contacts felt dry. sian. stupid contacts, so easy go dry. lol, but i think its cause im always in air-conditioned places.

nowadays i dont really feel like blogging here.
cause suddenly i feel like lj is more safe,
since we could lock our lj entries.
but blog will nvr be really locked, yucks!

wt thinks that i missed her too much. cause i called her wrongly just now and i even called the person's name out immediately. haha i really thought i called correctly then i was so happy cause pearleen couldnt get through her and i could. then wt "huh-ed" or smth. lolol. ok i am retarded, sorry ):

another visit once a month`

2009-08-20T00:29:00.000-07:00

i took a leave from studying today.

but i know ive got not much time to study anymore. just let me enjoy today in pain, then i will study tmr after coming home from sch. (i hope) i think the probability of me procrastinating tmr is huge, like 0.99! if youve learnt probability, the largest probability only goes up to 1. so yeah, remind me to not take another leave from studying ok!

today, my stomach gave me troubles.
so pain ):
today just aint my day, i guess.

i will stay strong so till then`

2009-08-19T03:36:00.000-07:00

blogger sucks big time recently ah. have to press ctrl-f5 before it becomes alright. facebook has been giving people problems too, have to ctrl-f5 again. zzz! and everything is loading so slowly in facebook.

sucks big time yoh!

ahah. life's nothing but mugging now. of course teevee and computers are needed. but the difference is; part of the time went to studying instead of just watching teevee and playing computer. blahhs. you should know what i mean.

i lol-ed ytd. cos my sec1 science teacher added me in facebook. and whoa, my dad knows him cos he quit as a tcher and became an engineer or smth, so somehow my dad got to know him.

im impressed cause i got 7 now 8! visitors just now.
*screams*
everybody loves my pretty blog.
BUTBUTBUT, i feel like changing blogskin again.
yet, no fresh and pretty blogskin in mind.
i think i get bored with things easily, and its very easily.
oooops! :x

2009-08-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

started on studying ff today, gambatte ne. shall try my best to salvage this sem's gpa, before nothing can be done. but i was rather restless today too. attracted to the com, and then started to listen to the radio frm 11plus till 4plus. haha, im sucha pro so patient with the broadcast. hahaha. no lah, i wana hear nice songs mah but sadly they didnt play xz's song today. *wails*

lets end with ;

STUDY.
STUDY!
STUDY~

i guess im not doing enough yet, but how!
shiat`

2009-08-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

let me rewind my memory to the dear diary moment to cheer myself up. lol.

dear diary,

today i had my crm paper. and i totally sucked in it. every question they asked me left a question in me too. either i didnt answer properly or correctly, or i answered incompletely. im left here emo-ing. aigoo, who's gona save me from this agony. i hate this type of feeling, where you know you might do badly but you just eff-ing dont want the results to turn all sour. but nothing helps.

worse of all, i just realised we had to submit our peer evaluation like, last last week. and i thought it was before 21st. i think i should go ask the tcher, he confused us or maybe just me, to the max. shit shit shit. and louis told me he's just gona deduct half a mark for late submission. aww, but every single mark is a gem to me, especially since i know im gona suck shit for gpa this sem.

i shall rest today, so i will be recharged to give my fullest starting from tmr. ive not been studying enough recently. i feel so restless, helpless, energyless and everything. ahhh, i feel like shouting everything out, but i just cant do it.

thank you for listening to my whines.
i shall end my whines here.

bye, diary.

hahaha. i think im being retarded here.
but im really feeling down now. ):
sucks!

2009-08-16T00:47:00.000-07:00

if only ...
exams has ended.
and holidays has started.

but im alr slacking like its holiday.
guilt aint bringing me anywhere.
its the results which would bring me to the world of sadness.
*screams* alright, time to start studying again now!

REMIND ME TO STUDY.
thankyou (:

2009-08-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

mugging, seriously started today.
but i procrastinated alot.
im not as efficient as the previous time.
tmr is the last day for preparation for crm.
ohnoo. ):

*uncertainty*

brace up, my friend

2009-08-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

so tired cause of the recently rushing of a few major project. it killed me, my brain, my body and my health. this is a terror. but im not expected anything easier for the remaining 3 sems in sch. i pity myself and everything. lol.

so tired, i can faint the next moment.
and, my stomach is unwell now.
poor thing!

had two presentations today. finally everything is over. lets congrats ourselves cos we dont need to face UB anymore. haha, we congratulated ourselves repeatedly after our presentation. so happy that everything is over for this sem, except for the tests and exams.

so now its time to work hard for the 4 tests / exams. and after that, we will have ultimate freedom and fun during the hols. although i guess my gpa will kill my mood for a few days during the holidays. oh how. i hate my results for this sem. not exam results, but project results.

but i know, im weak. ):

today's a wonderful day`

2009-08-12T05:45:00.000-07:00

today, sch-ed. stayed for proj till abt 3pm. then i accompanied ninet to collect her com. then met wt and we had dinner @ jaypee. aww, i love my time with the two of them. its still the best (L) ahh, i miss my sec sch, i miss my sec sch classrm, i miss my sec sch friends. suddenly i feel like crying but apparantly tears just refuse to come out so easily this period of time. awws.

tmr we've gota rush for rwps. and fri we'll have to present our rwps alr. ah, time flies. but i hope time flies to the holidays now. but no, it refuses to. dots! after that we have personal selling presentation. friday is hectic. but i will be so relieved after friday. oh, wow.

i love, to the max!

2009-08-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

had my ma test today. its effing difficult i swear. i didnt do that well but i guess generally well. lol, i guess this paper is really all way out to kill people. really! now, ma is finally down. on friday, rwps and personalselling will be down too. im not looking forward to the holidays, because time is really going too fast i havent done studying for the upcoming tests and exams.

ohno, ohno. ):

got back my fa paper. lol i dont know why but i got one part wrong. but nvrmind, my results is wonderful. hope the final year paper will be manageable so i can ensure an A for my yr2sem1. ok this sounds pathetic but indeed, yr2sem1 is really a tough semester to endure through. im glad its coming to an end. but im dreading this ending part since it hints the start of exams. yeah ):

i have nothing much to say

other than, i hate this sem to the max.

im afraid, i really am

2009-08-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

the whole process repeats itself again.
but im not confident, i will be practising as much self-control as i did for the last test.
oh how, oh noo. ):

but still, remind me to start studying NOW.
P.S. im attracted to a drama on youtube recently. sh!t. it means that i will be distracted by it daily, hourly, minutely and secondly. lol.

ok i will study soon!
but i sense danger for tmr.
my heart is pumping harder while every second passes.

happybday, my home.

2009-08-09T02:29:00.000-07:00

ive been slacking ):
i feel like my ma might be in deep shit.

P.S. happy birthday my home ._.

screws filled my world

2009-08-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

im feeling so tired.

but time aint going to stop for me.

aint this life too hectic?
& the answer is yes.
can time permit me with a min to pity myself.
lol.

2009-08-06T03:28:00.000-07:00

GOOD NEWS FIRST.

xiaozhu is currently acting in another new show. starts screaming. *ahhh* woohoo, soon i can get to chase another wonderful drama cos he acts in it. but i dont know what role he's acting and what type of role is he in the show. but its alright, at least he's cast inside that drama and hope he's the main actor. or else so ): right. hahaha. maybe ): for me only but .. yeah.

END OF GOOD NEWS.

recently ive been sitting on the sofa or mini-chair doing proj right in front of the com. so i nvr moved much ard the hse and my butt is so pain. but what can i do, nothing. cause we have to finish the project every night, but the aim somehow always fails. HAHAHA.

but its alright, since tonight will be the very last night of suffering from crm/rwps because the report will be done. ma will be over by tonight too since we're almost done, i guess. so after tmr, we will just be left with the rwps presentation which i predict i will suck in it. but lets not look into that for now.

im so looking forward to the end of this sem. i swear this sem really sucks to the max. our tcher told us yr2sem1 is more torturous than yr2sem2 so i hope next sem i will be able to survive the whole sem with a better condition or whatever. but im sure this sem my gpa is gona suck. so sad but the results are all not out and i shall try my best till the very end of the sem. gambatte ne! :D

i miss those times.
miss miss miss, really miss.

2009-08-05T07:06:00.000-07:00

just sometimes, you feel like crying.
just like everything is letting you down.

& sch aint doing any good to you.
cause you know youre not going to do well this sem,
and you dont want this to happen.

& friends are all too busy.
cause poly really aint slack-ish.
projects are always piling, let alone the upcoming exams.

& life aint colourful.
cause you realised you can only see sadness in your eyes.
everything has turned into black and white.

im weak. and when i know im weak, i will switch on my defensive layer. i tend to get angry easily, i sense things very easily i.e. im sensitive. sorry if i ever throw my temper at you, but it doesnt mean that im at fault all the times. :x lol.

i missed them.
i missed you too. ):

2009-08-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

hardwork doesnt pay off everytime, right?
but i will still continue to work hard.
so that finally i can prove that hard work will pay off.

stayed in sch till abt 8pm for ma1 proj today. didnt expect to stay till so late but yeah, nvrmind. haha. hope our report wont be too long, cause we had 1 and half page worth of points. but theyre just in point form, that is. what well, mr.L will do our report. hahaha!

soon the projects will be coming to an end. ma is ending soon, very soon. rwps will be done by next fri and then its all exams, tests and exams. gambatte, lets all do well.

but im so drained these few days!

2009-08-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

finally FA test is over. but this doesnt mark the end. tmr i have crm proj's Q&A. lets hope we dont do badly or fail to answer the questions yup. and then, we have ma proj which my group plans to finish tmr during the lesson time given. after that ive got to hand in my rwps report, and then the next week rwps presentation plus personal selling presentation.

after which, exams approach us again.
`crm
`ff
`fa
`fmi

gambatte ne! (: i shall stay strong till these projects and assignments and exams ends. so till then, dont mind me if i look tired. cause i need loads of energy to remain strong!

sorry, but dont make me guilty.
cause i didnt mean to hurt you this way.
& in the first place, you hurt me first.

2009-08-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

HEYOH; DO WELL FOR CASH FLOW TMR.
*CROSSMYFINGERS*
dearest fa, dont torture us tmr alright. may your tricks be spotted by us easily. but i guess, it wont be that easy. ): sucks but still, dont be too difficult. i dont wana suck in cashflow, although im semi-sucking in it now. gambatte ne!

tmr after sch have to stay back for FA test.
520pm to 620pm.
yucks, so late.
so byebye, my beloved bfb.

so long nvr see ninet alr! ): so maybe wed we'll get to see each other & have lunch tgt. muaha, but i think all of us are all so busy with projects now. so pathetic. aint poly life supposed to be slack, then why we poly students are suffering over over hectic schedules of projects, tests and exams. aiyoooo!

just sometimes, i hope to be independent.
but i guess its still a long way to go.
my life is wonderful, cause ive still got a few wonderful friends. (L)

2009-08-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

i think im adapted to the fact that we're always left with no choice.

i think i hate alot of things.
i hate this.
i hate that.
i hate him.
and i hate her.

but i do love too;
provided that theyre worth my love!

im a happy girl in a happy world leading a happy life ._.

2009-07-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

poor yuheng, dont fall sick ok.
god bless you, mother mary too (start lol-ing)

heyoh, im back to blog in my blogger. cause i love my blog too much to forsake it. im sure xz enjoyed his bday ytd with so many people celebrating with him. so happy to know that your idol enjoyed his birthday, right.

today my father came home with a new 2gb thumbdrive, the whole thing is made of metal or smth. so cool yeah! so my dad gave it to me and i happily pasted my name sticker on the thumbdrive. finally i have a thumbdrive to bring to sch to store stuff. muaha.

rc is under maintenance, screw it.
and do pray that my com is not attacked by virus.
cos i feel i cant control it sometimes.
blahhs! how how how~ yuckies!

finally a weekend spent at home. time to study for fa test which is on monday 5.25pm till 6.25pm. screw this late paper, make me have to miss bfb. sucks! but nvrmind, i will survive the paper so gambatte.

a busy weekend ahead at home. ive got to do tutorials for fa, ff. and then study for fa's cash flow. ohyeah. study study study. and omg, its time for me to start studying for the upcoming exams and tests. i must score score score. hahaha! lolol.

give me strength, i will survive with it.
i will be enjoy my life like it has nvr been so wonderful.
im happy, im fine.
i should be & i am contented.

2009-07-30T04:16:00.000-07:00

happy birthday, (L)
today is a special day. because today is xiaozhu's birthday. now, his age starts with a 3- but its alright. i still think hes so charming, handsome, cute, funny, comical and everything that's positive that you can think of. hope he enjoyed his birthday today, because i love to know that my idol is happy during his birthday!

recently, my com is really so crazily wierd. i think my com's left click has smth wrong cos it will kip dragging things automatically. or wtf, maybe xx's thumbdrive was filled with virus so my com got it? sucks. omg hope my com is virus free, i cant afford to lose anything ):

was doing ff proj in sch just now. left at abt 4plus for home. reach home just few min before bfb started. woots! xiaozhu melts my heart. but similar to what happened the past few days, i watched bfb while doing ff proj. how can our life be so sad, but ok lets learn more abt satisfaction alright!

i just watched a me.diacorp advert and i cant help but exclaim, its impressive. wow, nice and cool, so proo yeah!

anyway the main point of blogging today is more for ...
LZX HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
LOADS OF LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!

2009-07-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

everybody scream, cos its just 4hours31minutes left.

i so love love love him. nowadays, im so busy that i have to use the com and look at him at the same time. but i will endure it, soon after exams i can spend time with him everyday during the weekdays. so for now, lets bear with it ok!

finally crm proj is over. but tmr we will be chionging ff like mad to the max, right. have to continue doing the proj now or else tmr not enough time or smth then sad to the max and stress to the max.

do you know, im better off this way. because being with you makes people feel fake. because being with you makes people feel betrayed. because being with you seems torturous. but im used to this torture, till then i shall be used to it.
she's really, much better than you; dear acquaintance(?)

ive moved, for the better.

2009-07-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

just 2 days more

time flies. tmr its time to hand in our crm report. tmr its time to start ff proj. tmr is gona be worry-less without crm but worry-full with ff. hahaha. so tmr doesnt make a difference compared to the past few days. but perhaps, tmr might be better. at least i dont have to do ff with that ass to the max sucker.

but i love my crm group, minus one. heh!

after crm proj. its ff proj.
after ff proj, its fa test.
proj will never ending here.

after fa test, its ma proj.
after ma proj, its ma test.
after ma test, its crm test.
after crm test, exams are coming.
stress will never end here.

after crm test, its ff exam.
after ff exam, its fa exam.
after fa exam, its fmi exam.
freedom finally starts here!

but my freedom will only start on 2ndsept after 11.10am. but well, better than the last day of the exam weeks right. self-consolation in progress. and the gap between the second last paper and the last paper is quite long, but good for me to study for the last paper. woots~ i shall not whine too much about my schedule. every exam schedule timing has its reason behind it.

i will love life as much as i can,

just so before another life starts.

2009-07-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

less than 3 days left

finally, thanks to ninet, ive found the solution to the wierd layout of the updating page. yucks for being like this for the past few days, and yays for finally turning back into normal. woots!

today i skipped practically everything, lecture and tutorials. but the last tutorial was cancelled and if it wasnt cancelled, i wouldnt skip that tutorial cause that tutorial is important. so in the end they came to my hse to do crm proj again.

finally our report is going to be done soon. only some editing and some minor correction of information, perhaps. and then and then, our mock-up sample is 90% done. so happy, our hardwork has somehow paid off cos we manage to finish it one day before the deadline.

tmr shall ask the crm tcher abt the page-ing of the report and some minor queries. and then, its time to start ff project. i guess we'll start on wed. but omg, means left with wed, thurs and fri to do! and ive got to edit the personalselling report cos georgeteo was being stingy about giving marks to the reports, he demands quality and perhaps, quantity. so troublesome, when we're so busy to the max.

how how how. ff is a headache too. after crm headache, time for ff headache. is it true that life's unwilling to spare us from the headaches. so sad ):

i love my crm group minus one.
tired, time to slp soon!

2009-07-26T08:36:00.000-07:00

just 4 days more

whoa nvr update my rantings for a few days alr. but what can we do. everybody is perceived to be busy with their school work or project work yup. crm proj is a terror and headache but i guess its ending soon.

proj-ed the whole day ytd in sch. proj-ed the whole day today in my hse, they came to my hse. have to proj the whole day after sch in my hse again, cos the materials etc are in my hse!

mygod, the fmi witch is so fake. i hate hate hate hate her. fake people, cant you go live your own life so that we wont turn fake too. but its expected that the witch hates us since she always picks on us, but it nvr gone through our mind that she actually said our class is the worst tutorial class. so what makes the witch think she is the best tutorial lecturer. *puke* so pissed with fake peoples.

and i dont know why, the layout for my update page is still screwed.
sad, awws!
OMG im really so tired after two days of chionging crm and counting. every night we have to stay up late but our report just dont seem to be completed. things start to pile when we thought we've cleared them. but at least i know that for the contents part, we are just left with editing of section 5 and 7 and some minor portions, and yah, the methodology yeah!

P.S. a mosquito just appeared on my hand but i failed to smack it to its death.
hell to mosquitoes ah! "zzz"

TIME TO SLEEP. goodnight ):

2009-07-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

just 6 more days ...

what else can i say, other than ;
im really tired.
everything is forcing me to stay up late
everything is forcing me to stay away from slacking
everything is forcing me to stay strong
yet; everything is forcing me to move on ):

i wonder how im surviving sem 2 and year 3, im hating these projects. im hating some tchers. i realise im hating everything but myself. maybe, i should learn to hate myself so i can improve more. lol, retarded statement.

where had those wonderful days gone to ;

2009-07-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

7 days more (L)
blogger is so screwed, the layout for my updating page is still like this, as sucky as can be.

today is a tiring day. i woke up with my nose's tap not closed properly. and it started leaking more seriously as time passes. so most of the time in sch i felt so torturous. yucks! but i persevered till abt 6plus then left for home. loads of things to do ):

and rantings: the person i hated the most, starts copying me. he eff-ing brought a boxfile to sch today. zzz. yucks i felt like going home straight away to change into a bag. yucks, omg. for what he start using boxfile too. nabeh, hate hate hate hate hate. yucks to the max! argh, torturous day today.

but that doesnt mean, im not gona bring boxfile to sch. lol, i will still do that. hahaha!

crm is seriusly killing everybody. i pity everyone in my class. lol! but i guess, we will all survive it. so, gambatte ne! (:

i missed bfb today. i guess i have to miss it tmr too. ): im so sad, sad, sad. i know xz misses me, and i miss him alot alot too. lol. but i will stay strong without him for a few days. *starts crying*

2009-07-22T04:16:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN: 8 more days!
argh, now the blogger updating layout is screwed again. haha, blogger so suck recently eh! ):

school-ed. lessons ended at abt 11plus, i skipped our crm proj meeting and went out for lunch with wt and pearleen. lol, crapped alot. nothing much happened actually. hope i didnt miss much for crm, but i guess sylvia will fill in the blanks for me, heh-heh.

homed at abt 4plus. chiong-ed home to watch bfb. why they nvr show xiaogui's fen si tong le hui etc! i think spore is so bias against xiaogui or smth. they should just broadcast xg's lah. zzz! hope they will do that, or else xg fans sure complain. lol.

time to change blogsong. shall change my blog song awhile later. but for now, i shall go plurk to make sure my karma doesnt go down and omg ... i forgot what i wanted to say. dots.

we missed it, together.

my love will still hang there

2009-07-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN: 9 MORE DAYS

school has been usual. but not so usual. i suffer from temporary headaches time and again just now during school. sucks. but nvrmind, i survived. lol. during ma lab lesson, was slacking more than doing work. shit, i feel like a free rider in the group. cause i feel so comforted that there were 3 capable group members in my group and that i dont have to do anything. i shouldnt be doing this, im feeling so guilty!

after blogging, it will be time to do crm again. i guess crm is taking alot of people's live away. but i shall not whine because my group members *erhmm* are all suffering. have to go jp's courts tmr. get a salesperson's name so i can fill in the personalselling report's salesperson's name. haha, lol.

omg, tmr is 天狗食日or something. hope nothing bad happens. lol!

when you no longer matter, ________

will be the day i stop recognising you.

2009-07-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN: 10 more days
i downloaded the newest version of ie ytd and it looked pretty. haha, cool siah! cos if i open new tab from that window, the window and the new tab will turn into a color e.g. green or purple automatically. ok too bad if you dont uds wad i meant alright.

i wanted to updated using i.e. just now but failed to. cause the whole layout of the update page was very wierd. so i decided to come ff to update. but the layout is kind of wierd here too. i dont know why. but heck, i shall make do with what i have for now and update using ff.

but other than blogging for now, im still using internet explorer yeah.

nothing much happened today lah. school-ed. homed & watch bfb. slacked with the computer. dinner-ed, teevee-ed. and now playing the com again.

argh the current layout of my update page is sucky and im feeling dizzy so i shall stop updating.

P.S. i feel empty, i dont know why.

2009-07-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

feel like changing my blog address but, i dont know what to change to. haha, ive been changing loads of things recently. yesterday i changed all my passwords, i changed to using the newest version of msn (and im starting to enjoy using it now) and today i changed my desktop background. haha, i think i sound retarded, or maybe im being retarded.

sundays has been project day for me recently. and in particular, its crm project day. but i guess this routine will end soon, maybe next sunday we wont need to meet anymore; just maybe. it seems 70% completed, but it feels incomplete. lol, i dont know what im talking abt, so lets forget abt crm for now.

things to complete by this week ; cause i cant postpone it. lol.
` personal selling report (sucks)
` reflective journal two
` and the list goes on {i guess}

i feel so busy recently. i hate it. i feel too busy to relax as i used to. is it because i didnt arrange my time properly or is it because its the increase in work load. i shall take the second reason, hahaha! i will try my best to fork time out, to slack. but for now, argh! *thinks about crm/rwps project, thinks about ff project, thinks about personal selling report, thinks about reflective journal* i feel sad for myself, for being such a poor thing.

*weeps*
__ lets weep together, my friends.

2009-07-18T04:02:00.000-07:00

even weekends are tiring. cant really relax. ): sucks but i hope the result would turn out great. did fa tutorial in the morning. afternoon started doing crm project again. yeah, again. everyday involves crm and this somehow sucks quite a lil right. haha. tmr would be a whole day filled with crm, sian!

went into xp just now to do some spss for crm. then i decided to dl the newer version of msn (finally) into xp for fun since i seldom use it. then i thought it looked pretty. so i came to vista and dl-ed it too. ~~but now, shiat lah. i totally hate it and i dont know how to get back my previous msn. sian! filled with tons of regrets but nothing seems to help.~~

new msn sucks! *screams*
afterall, it doesnt seem that bad anymore *smiles*

now i can only tell myself that this new messenger is nice, and make myself love this new msn. totally dampened my mood. no more time to bother abt this. have to start doing personal selling, maybe later after dinner.

but i think, i hate tmr even more. i dont feel like project-ing anymore and im starting to hate this whole crm project. its just tiring me and draining my energy!

2009-07-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

today's a max tiring day. felt so exhausted that once i reached home, i sat on the sofa and refused to move alr. but 99% of the reason was due to bfb. hahaha, how could i leave my xz alone. lol! hmm, new show coming out in tw soon!

im now spamming 福氣又安康 but the show is not 100% out yet. only 6 episodes out. sian, means must slowly wait, every week one episode. so sad, but im patient. at least now i have drama to spam. heh-heh. i love dramas.

alright. tired day. time to sleep. tmr continue to chiong projects and tutorials. why did poly life turn out as torturous as jc life. i dont understand, but maybe i understand. lol!

im just feeling so ...

2009-07-16T03:48:00.000-07:00

tired. school-ed, stayed for project till abt 430pm then home-ed. watched bfb, now im here playing computer. heh-heh. but today is seriously overpoweringly tired. guess if im not tired later, i shall start thinking of how to start the ff project. & yup, i guess i have to do my part of ma graphs soon. *emphasized*

stressed. ive got so many projects to work on. crm/rwps, ff, personal selling and ma. 4 eh, omg! hope time passes slowly because i feel ive got insufficient time, but hope time flies because i hate this terrible headache over these projects. *worries*

scared. tmr we're having our "fake" rwps/crm project presentation. haha we're just requested to present for abt 2-4min. and the worst thing is that the teacher will be recording or video taking our presentation, because we had to do a reflection journal on our presentation. ahaha, imagine looking at yourself present. *retarded*

entertained. now bfb has a new 攝影棚~ it looks wierd to me now, not used to it now. but i guess the two of them are so happy with the new studio. ohyeah, its studio! and omg, lzx made a call to one of his sfc member who had his bday recently live ytd. so cool, how i wish im in sfc. then he'll call me. omg, i wont be able to believe it but sucks, i guess this wish wont be fulfilled anytime soon. *cries*

more relaxed. because im watching teevee now. alright, update again next time. recently i feel like ive got nothing much to update, only all these ... routined and lame facts or happenings. argh, what's happened to my life. it turning from semi-dull to total dullness. *sian*

2009-07-15T07:05:00.000-07:00

school-ed. stayed back for crm/rwps project. i realised year after year, sem after sem, the modules get tougher and tougher. but i will get stronger and stronger to withstand them alright. hahaha. stayed till about 4.10pm, home-ed to watch bfb, as usual.

but ...

while watching, i had to share the time with doing the crm/rwps project. i realised some errors so i had to find the roots etc. then finally, i thought i finished. then i started doing on my portion of the work. then i was informed that something was actually correct so i had to change again. then i had to edit some of the work ive done and send the corrected info to the others and blah. these took up about 4hours or more;

and ...

finally im done for today. tmr we can edit each other's portions and then start on tactical. suddenly i think my group is fast and efficient. but i dont know how's other group's progress. hahaha, lol.

currently ...

im aching all over my back. my shoulders, my neck, my waist area. but its worth it, i know it will be worth our effort. crm/rwps & ma will turn out alright, i believe. (:

P.S. its time to start FF too. shall be result-orientated. muaha! ._.

tell me that im a lucky star still shining brightly

2009-07-14T04:29:00.000-07:00

school-ed. home-ed. computer-ed. teevee-ed. computer-ing again now. and dinner-ing soon! my current feeling, just *stressed*~

you know, i hate this. because of you, we have to do alot more things. you cant be blamed at times, because it was us or maybe just me, who couldnt trust you. i feel really tired, really very tired. its draining my remaining energy. i feel pissed with myself and my everything-should-be-the-best expectation. but i love the way i am too, especially when they fetch me good outcome. because its just once that i gave up, and the outcome sucked.

let me stay weak for the last few hours.
tmr i will recover; i hope.

[edit]
on my way to dinner, i saw an ambulance and police cars coming into my estate. i feel so interested to know what's happening but my parents chased me into the car and drove off. although curiosity kills the cat, im a pig so it shouldnt kill me right. aiyah, why my parents cant let me stay there for a few minutes to see paramedics rushing. i feel so sadistic.

but you know, if i get to see the exact situation, maybe i will get to realise how lucky i am because im not the one struggling in that situation currently. but im more or less not alive anymore, projects kills me! i should learn to me more contented. i really should!

P.S. there's a funeral going on near my hse now too. i can hear those blowing of trumpets or chanting of scriptures or smth. *chants for the dead*
[/edit]

2009-07-13T03:27:00.000-07:00

as usual, school-ed. nothing much happened i guess. lectures, tutorials. got back my fmi and fa paper during tutorials. i realised, i scored rather well for last term's work. hope this second term wont drag my marks down. i shall nt be proud and stop doing tutorials, instead i should put in more effort yeah. they would definitely bring my gpa up, up & up! *crosses my fingers*

i think we managed to reduce the amount of talking during fa tutorial (?) or maybe, not. i dont know. nobody asked me to shut up! i was playing with pearleen sometime. we found alot of itchy points, then we started tickling each other. amazingly, sylvia wasnt scared of any. funneh!

did you notice, that i changed my blogsongs. if you didnt notice, now you realise right. haha! ive been spending alot of money on ingredients lol. so now im rather broke. i think im sucha spendthrift ):

if i ever see you fall, i will be there to pull you up, like how you always supported me. if you ever needed me, i will always be there for you, like how you always were for me. if you ever needed some trust, i will always believe in you, like how you always believed in me. thankyou ._.

2009-07-12T08:05:00.000-07:00

went out for lunch at abt 11am. then went back to sch to do crm proj. as usual, the b*stard wasnt here. this time his excuse was that he was plain lazy and that sch was far. zzz, if its far then in the first place why did he come to this sch. but, lets just leave him to rot :x

we suffered alot during the proj and the b*stard is happily playing his com at home. he seems to feel guilty, good lets make him feel extreme guilty-ness. shall allot him with lil lil work. see whether he would be scared when it comes to peer evaluation. muaha! *gives that evil to the max grin*

P.S: imagine yourself faking as 30 different type of people like a 56 year old married business man, or an engaged 23 year old normal working lady blahblah. sucks!

why do we exist?

2009-07-11T03:37:00.000-07:00

i feel so tired but i cant seem to fall asleep. aint this torturous, just say yes. i tried to do my tutorials once i woke up. haha, procrastinated while doing FA cos apparently jl hasnt finished. but everything is alright now. tmr got to go out for crm&rwps project. but i wont whine because this is seriously better than staying back on monday after 5pm. and, i wont bother whether he's present or not because i feel he doesnt help much, he only kills my bloodcells. ok i really feel so tired *yawns*

i realised i dont do much during the weekends. i just date with my computer, the teevee. thats all, but i enjoy it. and hope i wont get scolded by jl on monday because i talk too much again ok. hate it that i will talk but then, why doesnt she scold erhmm when he starts some unrelated topic. aiyah, biasness. lets hope she doesnt vent her anger on my test paper! *crosses my fingers*

im feeling so bored right now.

everything seems meaningless out of a sudden.

my heart feels empty.

shall maple for awhiles alright ._.

ive learnt alot , and i will be strong

2009-07-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

today is tiring. very tiring. i felt like sleeping most of the time. but i tried my best to pay attention and talk lesser. but i tried to correspond with sylvia through facial expressions. haha, i think we're rather crazy, or is that retarded. ehh, *fake smiles* and then starts *laughing for more than 3 seconds*

i shall enjoy doing tutorials from now on alright. and all the proj's deadlines are all before the end of this month. this is how you spell ... stress! but i dont know why, i dont feel the stress yet. maybe because i know my groupmates (except one *rolls my eyes*) are awesome!

i hate myself for being soft-hearted.
but i love myself for hating myself for being soft-hearted.
however, i love myself for being soft-hearted i.e. forgiving! {muaha}

anyway i dont know why my itunes has been playing xz's songs even though its on shuffle mode and nah, its not a playlist with only his songs ok! lol i wont be so retarded to be amazed by you know ... -fakes smile-

2009-07-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

but just maybe, i still love you.

___________ my heart still cares.

2009-07-09T06:06:00.000-07:00

surprisingly, i did well for ff. i thought i would suck in it because i thought i almost screwed the paper. maybe somehow, buddha saw my effort in studying this time and helped me attain such a good result. hope my fa will be alright too, lets all pray hard okay!

i promise myself, that i will do all tutorials from now on, every tutorial for every module. i promise myself, that i will decrease the amount of mouth exercise i do everyday (but i failed today because my mouth feels so itchy). i promise myself, that i will do my best for everything i do to achieve a bright future. i promise myself, that i must do them all.

i really found no reason why i must help.

we all knew it has ended but it was continued for some purposes which im unaware of now.

maybe i lost it, but i felt this taught me a valuable lesson.

so, thank you.

i loved you, once. and i wont regret loving you, because you taught me alot of things. BUT i will never love; or need you anymore.

i have no choice, i have to do it well.

2009-07-08T03:57:00.000-07:00

just sometimes, i feel im weak.
i will know my ff results soon, and im afraid that i would do badly for it, 40marks out of 50marks worth of mcq. you might think its easy to score, but hell no. not that the remaining 10marks was well done. the mcqs were all made up of tricky sentences and bombs that might trigger any second. im worried, but i just hope for a miracle to happen like how it happened.

with this grading system and all, i guess every results count. we cant even allow any test score to fall below standard, because it would pull our grade right now. but for now, i feel that my aim of getting into uni is near, but it seems to be walking away from me. i feel guilty. ive been talking alot, but thats my personality. my friend, remind me to stop talking politely if you ever catch me too engrossed in talking. i will love you as my friend. lol.

went for lunch with wt today. we had pizzahut, alright you can say again. wanted to call sissy and ninet along. but ninet had proj and sissy wanted to watch transformers. so much for being broke, you suckah. hahaha, you owe me stage merchandises for that. thank you in advance :D

i know it well enough ,
_________________ that i had no choice
because i have to do it well ;
______________ everything

make me strong

2009-07-07T06:10:00.000-07:00

another long day of school today. got back my crm results. i dont deny that my result for crm is rather good, lols. had lunch with sharon right beside us. haha. MA1 lab session, tried to start our proj but failed because we really couldnt find the datas. dont know what to do but heh, my group members are wonderful (except for one)!

anw recently my back of the waist always very pain and sour. lol, dunoe why siah. wt, help me check reasons lah. haha. i need a full time massager, then can massage me when im feeling tired, stress or my waist is feeling sour+pain. argh, so unbearable. hate this feeling. hope tmr the feeling will be gone *screams*

i feel like im not the me anymore.
but what was the me that made me the me, i dont know!

regrets, and happiness

2009-07-06T02:47:00.000-07:00

first official day of school. tiring eh! nothing much happened lah, just lessons and lectures. lol. got back our fmi proj and our grp got 70%. haha. sucha shit results considering that the other groups in our class got 87% or 88%. but maybe we deserved it somewhat, since we didnt really put much effort into it. kind of regret not putting my effort into doing it. but whoa, i tyco-ly got 92% for fmi test. hahaha!

finished sch at about 4.45pm. i totally hate people who start some unrelated topics and then cause the teacher to digress. why cant he just shut up and listen to the lesson. but aiyah, it depends. maybe he just wana waste time, not like me. hey, time is precious to me!

im feeling so tired.
but im happy.
because i can watch the teevee without feeling stressed over the next day's paper.
because i can spend my time with the computer without setting time limit.
because i can stay away from the lecture notes or tutorial notes once im home.
because i should be happy.

alright, we will be (:

< i adore the short period of release >

2009-07-05T07:19:00.000-07:00

morning, woke up early in the morning just to finish entering and collating my set of surveys. rushed to bathe and teleported to school. (in the midst i got so ... cos of some reasons) so ended up we didnt do much, left at abt 1pm. went for ljs with sylvia then went to jurongeast to look at some not-my-type of bags cause my sis wana get a bag, but ended up getting none. rang my dad and he came to fetch us. ah, sucha nice dad i have.

i played com after reaching home.
i made my rc workers work all day long.
i changed my plurk layout.
i made four new fwens in plurk, woohoo.
i want more fwens, add me.

to think that p-students are not given youth day holiday. in what way, dont the majority of us look like youths. sadness, have to go to sch where suffering starts once again. but alright, im strong so i will survive.

& the routine starts once again.

aint my new layout pretty

2009-07-04T02:25:00.000-07:00

mapled in the morning. haha i got so confused when i first went in. i think ive lost touch with maple for sucha long time. not that its a bad thing, i should stop this maple fantasy someday but i guess, not so soon yup (:

went out after that. i cut my fringe, cos my mother some kind of forced me too. she said my fringe is covering my eyebrows. (...) but alright, the person was nice cos she just trimmed a lil bit of my fringe so i dont look like a tweety bird!

i love plurking, because i gain karma out of it. *rofl*
i enjoy this kind of freedom to play the computer, watch teevee, sleep when i want. but i know, this freedom wont last long. at most, 2 months? soon i have to start studying again, and this time for the end of sem exam. i wonder why must our lives be filled with emphasis.

since i seriously do not need so much of this stress.

the long anticipated day of my life

2009-07-03T01:50:00.000-07:00

so wonderful, the feeling of freedom. haha! today marks the last day of exam, my last battle. i semi gave up on studying fmi since ytd. i slept, i watched teevee like nobody's business, but i read through fmi abt 2 times though. so today i went to sch thinking i will die for fmi. guess how i finished my fmi paper. i googled for definitions and tried to find answers, but i only managed to find the answer for the last question. i totally copied everything down. hahaha, retarded. but luck was with me so i managed to get a good grade for the mcq section. i can say that ive passed fmi paper. (amazed!)

i just patched-ed my maple.
_________ i shall play maple after bfb!

&& i can now spend my time with my

*computer, teevee && bed*
im loving it` ________________

2009-07-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

firstly; i love xz

(end of randoms)
---

secondly; im gona love tmr.

(not morning part, its after 11am)

BECAUSE TMR WOULD BE THE END OF MY AGONY. everybody, do cheer with me. i bet everybody will feel as happy as me if youve been facing the notes for at least 3 to 5hrs each day, or maybe more. FREEDOM, ive been longing for you since long time ago, youre finally coming. i missed you Y

im happy today ;

2009-07-01T01:34:00.000-07:00

lets start with a cheer, because today's paper is chicken-hand. but aiyah, this is nothing to be proud of since there's only a lil set of formulaes to rmb and thats all. haha, but it made me happy {at least for a lil while}

while studying for tmr's FA paper, i started doodle-ing on my hands. so i drew a watch on my hand and the time showed 5pm. yeah, 5pm forever which means bfb forever. haha :x and then i drew a heart and some random decorations between my thumb and my firstfinger. haha, ok im sucha bad girl for being distracted when im supposed to study.

FA, im worried but i hope i will do alright.

i permitted myself with abt 3omin of rest and computer time. so here i am. i better plurk because i dont want my karma to drop drop drop! haha (:

2moredaysofsufferings ;__________

2morepapers ;_____________

to freedom`

*cheers*

i was killed ytd, and once again today ;

2009-06-30T00:15:00.000-07:00

hello everybody! (: today's paper was a horror. i thought ytd's one was a terror, but today's one changed my impression of ytd's paper. i guess not many people survived today; other than that guy who always leaves before the paper ends. *roll my eyes* omg, i dont want my gpa to drop, but i cant stop it from dropping. ):

3 more papers to go.

3 more days of suffering.

3 more days to freedom!

im still sick. im still having sorethroat. the sorethroat is on & off. i guess i have only me to blame cause i ate chilli ytd night. i shouldnt have, but my hands just automatically went for it. who to blame, yup blame my hands! hahaha.

*crossmyfingers*___________

______________ lets pray the following papers wont kill!

have i done enough

2009-06-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

countdown to mst week: 1day
countdown to freedom: 5days

woke up feeling better. but ah, still a lil bit of flu & sorethroat. but alright, all is fine. (: started watching videos and being restless in the morning. spammed 933 again! ever since i started studying, 933 has been accompanying me. i guess 933 is a necessity for me these few days yeah.

afternoon, less of restless-ness. more of studying. started memo-ing crm. i hope i will do fine for tmr's paper. *crossfingers* finished memo-ing crm at abt 7plus. (cos i watched tv and watched itouch videos in between - guilty) but alright, its alright! & now its computer time i.e. slacking time for me. woohoo!

tmr is hectic. paper ends at abt 2plus. reach home at abt 3pm. mug ff until 5pm, then bfb. after bfb-ing, cont to mug. guess tmr i will only use dah com to play restaurant city for awhile. i have lack of time for my ~~beloved~~ ff!

i have to believe that i will be alright

__________but im doubting, just a lil bit; that is!

shit, im sick. (...)

2009-06-27T04:11:00.000-07:00

SICK & TIRED.

dont wana be sick at this point of time;
sorethroat seems btr; but now plus flu, headache & tired.
& aww, yuheng get well soon (dont get h1n1, ok choi)
and i must get well sooooooon tooo!
*crossfinger*

although im so sick, i made myself study today! morning was left for me to stay restless, so i spammed deeveedee, muaha. then i guai-ly started mugging at abt 12plus. i revised but i guess nothing much went in cos im really feeling so shit. zzz! argh, i hate this terrible feeling.

to the viruses kicking inside me: you shouldnt be here now. visit me next time ok. sorethroat like going to visit other people le, but flu & headache, you two still unwilling to leave ah? stomach pain, i will have dinner soon(?), so after my dinner you go home also ok! i have to be healthy by tmr so i can start memo-ing monday's module. leave me alone the whole of next week anw!

I HOPE I WILL BE ALRIGHT WHEN I WAKE UP TMR.

i hope i wish i dream i want i need i plead i guess i think i ...

2009-06-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

today, i briefly read through the notes i made for crm, ff, fa and fmi. briefly. then i started playing computer. haha! a lil of guilt but hmm, i will be alright, i hope!

had mac for lunch. but then, i think im going to get sorethroat soon. die siah, maybe i shouldnt have eaten that today, should have eaten it next week. shit lah, i dont wana fall ill during my exams. buddha bless me. ah, i dont wana get sick. shit shit shit. how how how. alright, no use whining yeah. haha.

ive been spamming fanfics recently.
all the story are so nice.
talented story-writers with wonderful stories.

i have to get well soon, really soon!

how long more can i withstand, i dont know anymore

2009-06-25T03:16:00.000-07:00

im strong, but make me stronger.

_______________ because i still cant take it, im falling soon.

i know i havent been mugging enough. i spent some of my time watching dvd, so guilty siah! ): the module im so afraid of is fmi, cos everytime i read the notes, i feel pekcek. i dont really uds why we need to study this, what do we need to know about this module, and what will exactly be tested. screw fmi ):

i hope i will make use of tmr to familiarize with all the five modules that i will be tested, cos sat&sun are reserved for me to memorize crm. maybe first half of sat can be used to familiarize the five modules too. but i doubt my capability, cause i swear i will get distracted. save me!

anybody kind can sponser me money, cause ... i wana join xz's fanclub !
he will call personally on the month of ur birthday (so nice, so nice)
i guess if i really get to hear his voice of the phone ; maybe i would faint the next moment.
but i wana hear. i really wana hear. i really really wana hear. ahh~ ):

my loveY for you wont fade ;

anytime soon, that is.

uncertainty fills my world

2009-06-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

maybe im doing not enough yet ,
or else why am i feeling so insecure ;
i feel like i might break down any second .

went out with wt today. i went to the policestation, but there aint much attractive policemen. aiyoo, why ): hahaha. had pizzahut for lunch. popular-ed to buy pens. ts-ed to buy my lover's deeveedee.

studied a lil when i reached home. i did study, but i feel like im not doing enough. i think im gona die flat for this coming mst. but; i dont wana die. argh, i feel like im try to struggle afloat although im in the middle of a deep blue sea and nobody can help me unless a big ship suddenly sets light on me or something.

hope i can study and accomplish more tmr. hope i wont feel so helpless tmr. hope i wont drown in the midst of struggling afloat in this deep blue sea. but i know, not all hopes would come true, i really know.

what am i supposed to do now ?

sometimes, you just feel so helpless ;

& nothing can help .

a video with a pretty girl and two wonderful set of voice

2009-06-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

amber is so pretty

& this song is nice (:

i hate this feeling

2009-06-23T03:07:00.000-07:00

SM(:LE
thats the way people want you & me to be ;
but my smile lost its way home.
can you guide her home ?

在這個時間地點
我們更容易迷失自己吧
而那股莫名的衝勁也漸漸的消失了吧
我到底擁有甚麼又失去了甚麼
----------------------
明明有在做卻還是會感到內疚
因為沒盡力是嗎應該還做得不夠對吧

ought to be punished;

2009-06-22T06:10:00.000-07:00

another restless day.
seems like holidays wont be extended ):
i didnt study much.
just read through some notes.
tmr i shall start trying out FF questions.

alrights, gambarimashooo!

random

2009-06-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

i feel restless.

i think i have been floating practically

i did nothing meaningful (as in for educational purposes) for the past 2 weeks of hols.

i guess the coming week (supposingly) would be the last week of hols ):

i shall mug, with some rest, that is, for this coming week.

i somehow hope i really can mug, i dont wana do badly for mst ):

what should i do, just what!

i spammed a drama the whole day of ytd

& yes, i finished it!

2009-06-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

played computer when i woke up, read a fanfic which was dam nice so i was late for the meeting with wt, ninet. but ninet came even later, but maybe its because i cabbed thr. hahaha.

but anw the fanfic was so very nice but the writer hasnt finished writing. hope she finishes it soon cos the story is really really nice. hahaha! and im so bored and lifeless i need some dramas but none attracts me and none should attract me successfully or else i would be dead for my mst, since i would be totally attracted to the drama instead of dating with my notes. ):

had lunch with ninet and wt at clementi subway. went to kbox after that, serene came to meet us after that. ah i miss serene loads loads. and omg, i really miss the time in swiss too. i realised the period of time i enjoyed most was the time when i was in swiss, i got acquainted with the best friends i could find (but i do find some wonderful friends now too) so i really loved swiss and i was really glad i got into swiss. muaha (:

serene, thankyou for the card. miss you loads yeah and you can try organising lunches but many wouldnt be able to make it, maybe ): hahaha. hope to meet up soon and takecare && gambatte for your upcoming a's. Y

ninet&waeting, thankyou for spending a bomb for my birthday. i think you all spent alot for my bday eh. zomgz, hahaha. thankyou loads yeah! Y

i shall start memo-ing this whole upcoming week. remind me to if im not (thats is, if you catch me online, but i doubt you would be able to because i would be appearing offline, lols) but i should do my best in studying.

gambatte ne!

2009-06-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

woke up at about 9plus today. played com, printed survey, went out to have lunch with sylvia, and we had a long chat, ended up we were one hr late for proj meeting. we proceeded to crm&rwps proj meeting, did some report and started on the basics for us to collate the survey results. home-d at abt 4pm.

finished making notes for fmi. so im left with fa to make notes. then its time to memo. i guess next week i shall be zhai nv times one million and date with the lecture notes. i will be loyal and faithful to my beloved for next week, alright. pester me to be faithful if im not, that is if im online or something. but maybe leme slack for some times too. ):

anyway, help drinkz publicize her wonderful vid.
veh nice yeah (:

hope to, soon.

2009-06-17T06:03:00.000-07:00

so tired after the camp, but i had loads of fun and i made friends.

DAY1, 16thjune, tuesday
had alot of talks, then we had games. then rest and had dinner, then had some discussion about our courses and we had night games, yeah games again. all the games were fun and my group was rather high and enthu. we kept running so we ended up having leg cramps etc.

finally got to bathe at about 12am. then we waited for each other in our group before returning back to our room. rested awhile and got dragged to 7-eleven by the guys in my group, haha they bully me, make me walk with them. i know they secretly were scared cos there were just 3 of them. but in the end i got freaked out 3 times while walking to the 7-eleven and back to the rm.

first time was just when we wanted to take the lift. the place was freaking dark so i got tensed up etc. then second time was while walking to the 7-eleven on the road somewhr in sb, i heard some noise from the drain and i held onto somebody and started shouting. last time was when we were walking back to our rm, i saw a cockroach and i started screaming like i saw you know what. haha this time i was holding to amos and he shouted a lil too. comical. (:

daidee-ed alot, bridge-d alot.

DAY2, 17thjune, wednesday
happybday, aisyah ._.

woke up at 6plus. i only slept for about 4hrs. poor me. so rare that i get so lil sleep. i dozed off alot during talks and lectures in the end. hahaha. nothing much today. not much fun. more of the presentation and stuff! our group was the first in games, so pro muaha. LOL! exchanged emails and contacts, took some photos and headed home at abt 4plus in the afternoon.

chiong-ed home. bath-ed. and i laid on the sofa while watching bfb. then watch until fall asleep siah. zzz! then slept for abt 1hrplus, woke up. watched teevee, had dinner, and now im updating. sucha long entry, thats all for now bahh. tmr still have to go for proj meeting, sian siah!

2009-06-15T06:05:00.000-07:00

happybirthday to myself & gaven

thankyou waeting.
for the ppc Y
thankyou ninet.
for the hard preparation and planning Y
thankyou yuheng.
for allowing us to bully Y
thankyou xuanhan.
for being a clown Y
thankyou joson.
for msging me a day before my bday and thinking he's on time cos he just got back from genting, so cute ah. hahaha! Y
thankyou serene.
long time no see, but see you soon alright! (: take care, till then. Y
thankyou yanyan, qinxin.
whoa my jnrs so nice zhun zhun wish me happybday. haha love the both of you yeah. Y

thankyou serene, ninet, yuheng, waeting, xuanhan, joson, yanyan, qinxin, yongbin, jinghui, sharon, sylvia, aisyah, pearleen, melody, firqin, gaven, sally, justin, melissa, edwin, xianglin, nafisah, shufen, yikming, jiongle, nafisah, ain, shermin ..
(pardon me if i forgot you)

&& of course thankyou to my family.
thanks to my mother for suffering on this day 18yrs ago ):
and thanks to my sis for the pretty present she bought for me.
ah! thankyou everybody!

ok i shall end my post here. thankyou wt, ninet, xh and yh for celebrating my birthday with me. had loads of fun, as usual. hahaha. love you guys yeah! YY tmr have camp to go to, so i shall sleep early, although i doubt its any early. hahaha!

2009-06-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

today is another tired day. morning i spammed fmi notes but i got dam pissed off while doing it, i dont know why. then spammed maple, went jp helped my sis with some charity street sales. was staring into the space most of the time, then i had bubbletea and the shihlin chicken while slacking so yeah i spent quite some $$. and yes, im growing fat!

notice: im near broke. anybody wana spons me some moneh?

and whoa rc suddenly so many new things i kip buying until im left with 10k plus. shiat, im sucha spendthrift. hahaha! but whoa, its so cool. im loving it! but i think my restaurant like so wierd cos very cheena and angmoh, so mixed. i make my restaurant play a fast fast song, cos i want the ppl to eat fast and leave fast hahaha! the song is seriously FAST.

ok im having leg cramp i dont know why & im feeling so very tired.
so thats all for now.

i will, smile.

2009-06-12T03:31:00.000-07:00

another tiring day, but tired not equals cnt play maple :D

he was so you,
______ he made me think of you.

had smart duties today again. but i woke up at 630am today, better than ytd (: but sian, today everything ends late so i managed to escape at abt 6pm.

we will all be alright,

always putting on a smile.

but who actually remembers.

2009-06-11T04:14:00.000-07:00

today is nothing but a tired day. imagine waking up at 5plus in the morning and then staying in sch till 5plus in the evening. tmr would be the same, but i shall refill my energy during the weekends.

at least i get to rest from lecture notes these two days.
yah, im trying to comfort myself.
im really very tired.
but what can i do, for the cca points etc.
ohh, im enjoying it!

staystrong, (:

2009-06-10T00:45:00.000-07:00

(updates)
i was making chpt 1 FMI notes. while making it, i feel so pissed. i dont uds anything abt what i wrote, or rather, why are we studying these noob information. words, words, words. i feel so gek-ed. i feel like spamming some unwanted & unneeded 'v_________s', but i think i wont feel appeased.
FMI, can you screw off.
ah, everything puts me off currently.
(6.09 PM)

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ive been a good girl recently. cos i prepare notes for at least one chpt each day, since sat. (please praise me, so i will continue doing it diligently!) unfortunately, tmr and fri i cnt do anything cos ive got cca. ah, its alright, its time for me to rest a day or two from these lecturenotes yeah?

other than studying, i was mapling!

_______________ i created soyaqirlx, pureint (:

ok to compensate for tmr and friday's lack of study, i shall prepare one more chpt after blogging. ive got nothing to blog abt recently.

i just felt tired, nothing else.

2009-06-09T06:02:00.000-07:00

convince me that i love studying.

im not convinced, but i will study ):

take care, alright.

2009-06-07T18:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a total fan ~~day~~ night for me. when xz appeared, for the first time, the place was filled with screams. so imagine, how popular is xz, oh so love. every action he did, screams can be heard. whoa! his performance was hot, cute, handsome, and eveything positive you can think of. and whats more, he donated US$10,000. *screamyourheadout*

now i know the reason why i so love him, he's too loveable.
ytd night, i spent my time screaming during his appearance, but i swear its worth it. sucha long time since i really do this over him, ah ~ my love for him is coming back intensely. hahaha!

ISOLOVELZXY

and ytd aftnn i went into maple.
alot of things changed so i was confused most of the time.
my char looked like shiat, so i feel like zzz-ing when i see her!
who wana buy cash for me, yeahyeah? (:

note: girl, do remember to study.

2009-06-06T05:10:00.000-07:00

today morning, i successfully started on crm! i made chpt 1's notes. but zz, chpt 1 is short. when i started chpt 2, i start to pekcek cos chpt 2 is a freaking long chpt. however, i shall try to finish making notes for crm by tmr ok.

and *cheers* xiaozhu is coming tmr.
he will be at toapayoh at night.
so miss him, long time since i feel so happy cos he's coming.
i shall call the donate hotline when he's performing, muaha (:

went out in the evening to jp. shopped and shopped. bought alot of things and my mother spent abt 190bucks. omg! & woots, ytd i made my mother buy a pair of shoes for me. pretty pretty shoes. its the best time to shop now, cos its GSS yeah!

i feel, empty.

2009-06-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

just when i thought the sky is turning dark, i realised the sun hasnt given up yet. so; why should we?

hello holidays,
_______ i hate you ):

holidays is here, but im not feeling any happiness in me. cos my holidays aint really for me to enjoy. skipped lectures today, and gems ended after abt 35min, so i got to leave sch at about 1.35pm. wanted to meet yh and ninet with wt, but yh said his mama cooked and i thought ninet is going out with her friends so we went home, in the end ninet replied saying she wana watch movie. but at that point of time, im alr at home! so, next time ok (:

please pester me to make notes for exams.

please remind me to revise on my work.

please ask me to decrease the amt of my computer time.

please help me alright ._.

gambarimashoo!

2009-06-04T00:51:00.000-07:00

ohyeah. i just finished doing my rj. (whining starts) dont the teachers know we're all shy students who hate self-praising, why must we write this type of reflections!

i realised my hols will be so packed.
11&12thjune - smartevent
14thjune - xh'sconcert
16&17thjune - smartcamp
xxthjune - father's+grandfather's day
the remaining days are left generally for dating!
but its with my lecturenotes.
"yucks!"

tmr ive got not even 1 second of break, i guess. cause we're having FA make-up tutorial lesson. thanks to our wonderful teacher who mc-ed due to foodpoisoning. ahh! so yeah 1hr make-up lesson during the break. so i shall make sandwiches and eat during her lesson, she said its alright anyway. muaha!

ive been busy spamming "wegotmarried" k-variety show recently. i so love one of the couples but now, theyve splitted happily(?) so i shall stop watching it. means, more time for studying ohyeah. (L)

gambatte, to myself.

stay strong (:

2009-06-03T06:45:00.000-07:00

tired day, tiring day.

im tired of tiring days!

___________ but, what can i do?

my stomach dont feel healthy. i mean, i feel like my stomach aint healthy. blahhs, today after sch had to stay back. hate it but for my cca points, i shall be good in the cca (not that i can quit now) ended at about 6pm which made me T.T cos my bfb, you know. haha!

i have a gay friend,
who thinks its my mother's bday in 12days.
whoa, sucha nice friend! (L)

sometimes,

i really miss it ):

2009-06-02T05:36:00.000-07:00

my stomach is seriously turning upside down

_________ i dont know why T.T but im suffering!

finally, ma1 is over. maybe forever, maybe for now. now we have to headache over rwps rj. rj is reflective journal. sian. i realised my hectic life is never ending.

soon, it will be holidays. but you know, apparently it wont be a wonderful one esp when ive gota study for mst during the holidays. dont you agree?

ok my stomach is really unwell.
time to relax, while spamming youtube videos!

2009-06-01T03:43:00.000-07:00

ive been bad today.

my temper aint good today.

im so awful today.

sorry ):

( i realise, guys b!tch alot)
but today, a load is off my shoulder. FMI is over for now. but the fmi tcher seemed pissed cos we were playing games when we should be doing our work and she caught us. and so yeah, i was feeling guilty. i shall play less during fmi next time, i shall ok!

tmr will be another load off, thats ma1. woohoo! hope our group do fine and i realised my group is quite wonderful. i have nice group mates! (: i enjoy doing with them, at least theyre responsible and nice and you know. haha.

ok today , im feeling awfully bad.
even my stomach is against me, ive got no appetite for dinner.
and the worst thing is, i felt like vomitting while i was eating.
who exactly, can you cheer me up?
i think im feeling so stressed up ): awws!

2009-05-31T04:59:00.000-07:00

i wanted to blog just now but i kept delaying it cos im so attracted to a korea variety show. ahaha, damn nice to watch. muaha, so addictive.

nothing much happened today. filled with fmi proj, watching vids (totally spamming it) and playing rc. haha. and smth sucky happened while i was playing rc. i dont know what i did but i accidentally bought a 60k rocket for the exterior design of my restaurant so yeah. suddenly my money dropped by 60k to 15k. shiat man.

but kind sylvia gave me a fishtank
to console me, hahaha!
thankyou yeah! (L)

ok shall stop updating.
notice: i love my icons on top of each entry.
okok! time for dinner!

2009-05-30T00:23:00.000-07:00

you know,
________ i missed you alot.
everything is piling up.
for today and tmr,
#1. FMI report
#2. MAI proj
#3. ~~CRM/RWPS survey~~
has to be done. (fish)

i dont know why but im currently feeling aimless, like ive got nothing to do and im floating around. but nahhs, im supposed to be thinking of what to add for FMI report (cos we frigging nid 10pages) but yeah, my brain is not even functioning well to think. so pearleen & sylvia are doing the thinking job now!

ive got things i wana buy.
or rather, just dvds.
HOTSHOT DVD (L)
&& more i guess!
ive been saying i wana buy hotshot for years
im so apologetic to my love.

but im really feeling so pissed now, i dont know why.
lol, i realised time's running out.
4weeks more to MST.
im not prepared, ive been playing the whole term.
omg what am i doing, shit me!
please scold me, i hate myself for this.

2009-05-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

*cheers*
xz is coming to spore next sunday
for a charity show.
ah, see he's so kind hearted.
i shall make my mother donate when he's performing.
so love xz! (L)

and today ive been spamming facebook quizzes like nobody's business. and the most pissing thing is, rc cnt be played. argh! stupid maintenance, sucha perfect time to do maintenance. noob shiat. hahaha!

ok i should stop blogging.
im off to watch chnl8 gemini-star.
(ok i totally convert the drama title from chinese to eng)
so yahh, bye! (:

omg my arm feels so sour!

any sweets for my arm?

2009-05-28T03:06:00.000-07:00

i feel so ... blank !

routined day again. but had a make-up rwps lesson. so my day ended at abt 3plus, got the teacher's opinions abt a survey we created and then homed. hahaa! played computer, did some facebook quizzes, played rc and stuff.

& i feel like there's no more anticipation in my life.
cos everything is so routined.
everything is just expected.
i feel so tired.
but sometimes, i hate excitements.
its tiring to have too much excitements too, yeah.
i just feel so tired, today ):

i just drank a cup of bubble tea so i feel very full.
i get bloated easily.
i suspect my stomach is trying to tell me
to eat & drink less cos im getting fatter.
i need to lose weight lah!
(although i dont seem to be fulfilling it)

will you be the one,

***** to brighten my life?

was having ma1 tutorial lesson.
then i created this:
(please praise me, hahaha!)

tapwater drips down

riverflow gushes down

raindrop splatters down

so do you realise now

what goes up comes down

2009-05-27T03:37:00.000-07:00

sch-ed, tutorial-ed.
did proj for awhiles then went to have lunch with wt.
today, i almost lost my hp.
cos i dropped it in the lecture hall and i didnt know.
but i realised soon after it and went back.
thanks to sylvia and aisyah for accompanying me!
muaha (:

had pizzahut for lunch.
went to "shop" awhile, really awhile.
then we went home.
mapled awhile, then do fmi proj.
argh proj are piling up.
awful. & when i feel stressed, i hate it.
when i dont feel so, i feel guilty like im not bothering abt the projs.
ok im wierd okay, i understand.

and the most crucial thing of my entry is ...
the first h1n1 patient appears in spore.
no, not the main point yet.
the patient arrived ytd,
and pearleen & sylvia were doing their airport duty ytd.
haha no link with me yet, but ...
then i shared water with pearleen today.
(but pearleen, my cold water is nice right, hahaha!)
haha GG! so yeah, if anything happens, we will be in tgt.
(wt says she wana have direct contact with pearleen)
LOL, but i believe we're all blessed. && i dont wana die, yet.

do you feel like tearing sometimes

just some of the time?

2009-05-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

i feel like something is choked at my chest.
am i feeling stressed?
pekchek with this kind of feeling, yucks!

do you know, as in really know

who really love you as their friend.

do you know, as in really know

who really thinks of you when theyre in need of help.

do you know, as in really know

who will really be there when you need help.

2009-05-25T05:44:00.000-07:00

went for school.
in between went to rafflesplace
(fieldtrip-ed)
went to euohbee, ah the people working there quite nice yeah.
had lunch at tiongbahru.
back to sch for tut and homed.

omg my leg is so sour. must be today walk too much. hahaha. i hate walking actually. i hate using my leg. but i dont want to be wheelchair bound though!

nothing much happened lahhs.
spamming youtube for weekly tw dramas
&& watching chnlu 8pm show.
nice yeah!

i hate myself for loving.

2009-05-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

*heart melts*
i want SONYC903.
lets countdown to aug23rd.
then i get to buy a new fone cos im upgrading my plan.

alright, its just 3more months.
im a patient girl.
i shall wait, wait, and wait.
but anw this fone is not out in sg market yet.
lets hope it will by out at ard late july or early aug
so this fone is still new & hot.

but then again, who knows. maybe by the time i get to upgrade my plan, another better and more attractive fone would replace C903. but till now, i still think C903 is so zomgz-ly nice and pretty. i shall save some money in case my father refuses to pay the full sum or whatever. im getting a new fone, not very soon.

i changed my blog's email add.
deleted my previous blog(s)
when i was deleting them,
suddenly felt a 莫名的心痛 "but"
byebye, beautiful and/or sucky memories.

i shall not miss those memories, i will create more (:

2009-05-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY gohxuanhan